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Over the moon

 I've cried more times this month than ever.
I cried about you, I cried about me.
I cried about my misfortunes and in between the snot and salty tears I keep telling myself that it's going to be ok. 
I keep telling myself that it's for the best and that I'm strong and that it's going to be ok. 
I laugh when I hear how 'stressed' people are. 
They don't even know what stress is. 
It's hard waking up everyday thinking it this might be the day they all find out and I get canned. Not knowing if the next step is a bigger hole. 
I wish there was someone who could tell me that it's going to be ok so that I could believe them. No one knows about the crying, no one knows how much everything just fucking hurts. I pray, I hope and I wish only for the best. I asked God for a miracle. He does those things for the faithful folks. I hope he has one for me too. I really do. 

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